"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:9 (NIV)I used to be one who tried to figure out life. The more I tried, the more frustrated and stressed I became. Panic and anxiety were my daily companions. Feeling like I was choking wasn't fun. It scared me.
Since then, I've learned the only way I can live is to NOT try to figure out life. I do best when I rest in the LORD. Living one moment at a time with God.
Well, this month as many of you know I am
trying to rest. Can I be honest and tell you the more I rest, the more restless I become. I thought I could rest in spirit as I moved about my business. Not so easy. I have too many things to do. And I tend to shut down when life is busy. Reading a book sounds like a sweet escape for times like this.
* My son has high school finals this week, along with his first basketball game of the season.
* My daughter is working on her science fair project.
* My husband has lots of meetings this month to prepare for 2010.
* And I have two talks to give this week. One at MOPS tomorrow night and the other on Sunday afternoon for the teens in jail. Both of which I still need to pray and prepare for.
And let's not mention the fact that I have not put up my Christmas tree. Unusual for me. And I've only bought
one present. Christmas cards? I haven't done those either. Not sure I will. I may go the e-card route for the first time ever.
The bottom line is my resting isn't working. I must kick it into high gear and plan each day. Making my list and checking things off. Something I don't normally do well.
Right about now I need a different perspective: God's perspective. He sees things from above. He sees the bigger picture and it's beautiful like this view from above. I need to look to heaven and thank God for another day.
It's time I stop looking at my burdens-- and start looking to God for strength.
I'm clinging to this verse today:
And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. 2 Corinthians 9:8(NIV).
Now I must go and abound in good work!
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Are you experiencing something similar? If so, please share. Tell me how you are dealing with the added stress. Maybe I can learn from you. I'm definitely ready to listen!
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(pic taken on flight back from Florida in October)